You obviously can’t handle seeing my swag all over your dash.
I’m going to include my stupidest and pointless life goals here :) So before I die, I want to at least do these things…
- To be successful.
- To be happy.
- To vacation in Tokyo, Korea, Paris, Mexico, Spain and Italy.
- To finish my shopping list.
- To go to Disney Land :)
- To see and/or touch a panda.
- To go on a road trip to nowhere, and possibly get lost.
- To take a picture every single day and see how much I’ve changed within 365 days.
- To find something that I haven’t seen since I was a baby or at least, since I was 3 years old.
- To have one of those fairytale, unbelievable moments.
And then There is Me.
this deserves another reblog. LOL.
I’m a bit scared and… yeah, scared. I can’t even think properly through this huge fog of doubts in my mind. I had an interview for my co-op next school year and I just realized how close I am to being in the “real” world. I’m scared, maybe even a bit terrified. What if I don’t like what I want to do with my life right now? What if I’m not successful? What if I can’t do it? What if I can’t handle it? I keep telling myself that I’m so ready to do whatever it takes but with my future plans, there’s at least 11 or 12 more years of school. I don’t even know if I can do my co-op because it’s at some next area. I need a job to keep myself up and I haven’t heard from any of the places I’ve applied to. I’m anxious and a bit excited, at the same time. What if I meet people? I’m going nuts! I keep thinking of what my future could possibly look like, and it’s definitely not helping me. I’m researching what I would be doing if I ever actually succeed in whatever I’m doing and I like it. I’d be called, Dr. David, which I’m def not looking forward to because it sounds like a man but I’m excited. It’s the kind of excited where you don’t know whether or not you want to scream or hit something or throw something, whatever. I want to help people. I’m so nervous just thinking about it. I think that I’ll be shaking my ass off on the first day. Ughs, what am I gonna do with my life? Honestly, I don’t even know. I want to be happy with making other people happy. I think that it’ll be so cool.
I usually either post or reblog songs every couple of weeks. I think that I’ve reblogged 2 or 3 songs in one week and I just posted another one. The reason why I do it every couple of weeks is because I want to appreciate the song for what it’s worth. When I start get tired of it, that’s when I add another one. I think that I’ve been adding too much and it feels unnatural. I’m going to go back to only one song every other week or so, because I like it better that way :)
I haven’t had any major problems or anything stressful happening. I’ve been happier and weirder. I can’t even think of anything depressing to post… Life’s been pretty easy. And I’m thankful for it. My friend even told me that I’ve been nicer lately. It feels good to be this content and satisfied :)
no problem :)
I’m thinking of doing something health care related. For now, I’m planning on becoming either an oncologist or a cardiologist or specialize in obstetrics and gynaecology . I want to help people and heal them. I want to serve others and be needed. It’ll be hard, I know that and I might not have the life that I, deep-inside, really want. But if I can help others, I think that it’ll all be worth it in the end.
But then you notice that they reblogged it from someone else, not you.
haha, no problem :) yeup, i will and same goes for you!
and I’m Marjorie, nice to meet yooou~
Needed to hear this.
Some people don’t care, but I’m not one of those people. I try to be as honest as I could possibly be. My lies, are little white lies that have some truth to them. And if I don’t like you, I won’t pretend to like you. That’s not me. I’ll be polite and civil but you’d still know that I dislike you. I wouldn’t say it out loud, because that would just be starting something unpleasant.. but, I try to keep it in the acquaintance level if I’m not necessarily a big fan of you.
In all honesty though, why bother being fake when you could just be you? You may think you’re not the greatest person in the world, but someone out there does ;) So don’t hesitate to honestly be yourself.
I actually don’t really know where I’m going after highschool S: If I get a scholarship to a school, I’d probably accept it. I will most likely apply to get a scholarship at the colleges/universities closest to me. I need it to have the course that I plan to take, obviously. Maybe, University of Toronto or Humber College or George Brown or Ryerson? I’m not sure yet…
Seeing the strongest people you know, broken. It honestly breaks my heart whenever I see family or friends sad. It hurts even more when their full-out crying, finally showing how much pain they’re in. It’s usually those people who have it worse than others but they still smile every day, because they understand how important it is to be happy. I envy them, so much. I wish I could be as strong as they are.
What starts with D and ends in ick?
What starts with an F and ends in uck?
what starts with C and ends in UNT?
What starts with ass and ends with hole?
It’s the thought of me being easily replaced by someone else that’s keeping me from letting my guards down with anyone. I often catch myself second guessing and doubting those who do their best to reassure me. Just imagining getting overly attached to someone, then waking up one day to see they’ve walked out of my life without an reasonable explanation frightens me. I just hate to think that I wasn’t enough to keep someone around.
I’m sort of a bookworm, can’t lie. I’ve read a lot of books and I like a lot of books. I can’t really pick a certain book and say that it’s my favourite so I’m just gonna give a list of some in my top 5 ;)
- Harry Potter series
- Dear Dumb Diaries series
- Artemis Fowl series
- A Series of Unfortunate Events series
- The Spiderwick Chronicles series
You know what bugs me? When I know about someone’s story and about how much they went through and they’re consoling me. It’s like, go take care of yourself first before you try to help me. I don’t want to be thinking about your wellbeing when I already have my own problems to deal with. I’m sorry if I sound really mean. It’s just that,I don’t want to bug others about my problems, especially if they have their own.
The day started okay. I was just chillin in the morning. I felt bad that my dad was late again because of us though /: I’ll make it up to him next week. First period was alright. Sat next to my gyaldem, Rachelle and did some science. Second was super chill and hella fun. Me, Rhey, Viv, Jason and Richard were all fooling around with this graveyard drawing that we drew for our assignment thing ;p After second was the beginning of my mood swings… That was when I started to fake my smiles and act like nothing was wrong, when I actually felt like crap. I didn’t want anyone to talk to me but I was at school, so there was nothing I could do about it. I started to feel better, little by little, after school. This event that I was looking forward to, Multicultural, was cancelled. Nbd though, I’ll just not do anything special this year then.
I went home for a bit and ended up staying until 4:40. I took a quick body shower and left to go to Maui’s. I went there and this chick was sleeping. Tsk, LOL. I woke her up, which took a while, and we went to Alex’s for my bebe, Kenzie’s, 16th birthday ;) I still wasn’t in the mood but after eating, playing UNO and Mario Kart on the wii, I was so happy again. We danced with Just Dance 2 until we were all pumped. Then, we got the birthday girl her cake and girl talked for a bit. After that, an epic game of hide-and-go-seek in the dark began! It was hella scary cause it was super dark, but it was so fun. We played for a while and when we got too tired, we stopped and talked again. I had to go home after though /: It was such a great night though and I’m currently happy. I hope I stay that way until I fall asleep :)
I want to be special to someone. I want to be the most important one to them. I know how selfish that sounds but I’m getting tired of the way I always end up being second to someone else. I don’t want to compete for a person’s attention. I don’t want to be an option, I want to be a priority. I doubt that it’ll ever happen but a girl can hope, right?
- you realize that your greatest friend isn’t your friend anymore.
- you get dropped, like you didn’t even mean anything to them in the first place.
- your best friend admits that their better friends with someone else.
- a person likes you but can’t fully like you because of the way you look.
- no one pays any attention to you at all.
- no matter what you do to get accepted, nothing ever works.
- you’re having the worst day of your life and nothing makes you feel better.
- someone lets you down.
- you get to the point where you can’t even look at a person anymore.
What else can I really say? No matter how much I complain and no matter how much I bitch and whine, life just sucks sometimes.
no problem :) i like the stuff on your blog! thanks for the follow back btw.
Maybe because I care too much about a person to lose them. But sometimes I just wanna say “F*ck it.” If you wanna leave, go ahead. I’ll be hurt, of course, but if I’m not worth your damn time anymore,then go.
They are there to be obnoxious with you…
And to listen to your stupid stories.
They know how to cheer you up…
And how to bring you down.
They know when you like someone…
Or when you need to rebuild your self esteem.
Sometimes, they can be annoying…
Or just simply embarrassing…
But they will be always there for you, forever.
Sometimes I miss that feeling of being special to someone, being the centre of their attention and vice versa. Sometimes, I miss that feeling that a brother or sister or friend or even a bestfriend can’t give you. As lovely and amazing as my single life is… sometimes, I miss having someone else there with me. Those long talks on the phone, the text messages, the chats, the chillages and so on.
I know, I sound really lonely talking about this by the way. I’m not though. Like, I’m honestly so content with my single life but it’s just… I get that feeling sometimes, where something’s missing. You feel me?
I honestly, really don’t know where I shop. I shop anywhere, as long as the clothes look nice. LOL ;p The different places I shop at are like,
- Rue 21
- Urban Planet
- Urban Behaviour
- Suzy Shier
- Costa Blanca
- etc etc
LOL. I can’t really think of much atm…
- You’re being attached to someone who’s being distant towards you.
- You’re paying attention to someone who ignores you.
- You’re making time for someone who’s too busy for you.
- You’re too caring to someone who seems careless towards you.
- You keep waiting on someone who keeps stalling on you.