February 2012
43 posts
Gail Coronado is so cool having the same dentist as me ;)
I am. I really, really, really am. I have an amazing life, with family and friends supporting me every step of the way. I have a house, a home, all my things and my own little sanctuary. I’m alive and happy and doing well. I have every reason to smile and I am, because I’m lucky.. so wonderfully lucky.
Snoop Dogg, Wiz Khalifa ft. Bruno Mars - Young, Wild & Free.
Thinking back to last year, I don’t think I would’ve been able to do the things that I do now back then. I mean, I’ve always been fairly quiet and shy before. I never talked in class, unless it was with friends or willingly performed infront of an audience or talked to people I didn’t know without feeling awkward. I feel like I’ve changed a lot, in a good way. I feel more confident in myself and I could honestly care less about what other people think of me. I find myself doing things I never would have done. I’m more willing to try new, and sometimes crazy, things. I like it.
i don’t know how to handle death. i’ve never experienced this before. we weren’t very close but i still feel attached to him. he was always so funny and always had a smile on his face. he was probably the best soccer player i knew. i can’t believe he’s gone at 16. and i feel so guilty about not being able to go to his viewing. i just don’t know what to do in this case. i’ve never experienced this before; i’ve never lost anyone, at an age that I will actually remember.
You encounter so many obstacles in your life. God even said you’ll have many struggles in this life on Earth, it’s a fact. The difference between successful people and those who give up is that the successful people use their struggles to become stronger. They learn from what they go through and move on. If you want to be happy in life, don’t let anything bring you down because it is temporary only if you make it that way. So chin up and keep moving forward.
So.. I got my report card on Friday, right? AND I GOT 80 ON MY FREAKING MATH!! I don’t think anyone can really understand how proud I am of myself! Why? You’re probably like, “whadaheck? she’s asian, obviously she got an 80!” Uh, no. But anyways.. There’s no CA for grade 11 university math so the exam is worth 30%. I went into the exam with a 76. Do you know what that freaking means? I GOT at least 90 ON MY EXAM! Oh my freaking gosh. Is that even possible? I don’t even know but I did it so it must be :’) I’m satisfied with my life.
I can’t really remember a time when I expressed the emotion well. I always held it in and waited for the feeling to pass. Now that I try to express it, it feels wrong. I’m human, I’m allowed to be mad. I don’t understand why I can’t seem to get it out though. When I show just a bit of it, I feel guilty. Is it supposed to be that way? I don’t even know anymore.. I’m trying.
There hasn’t really been much of a difference, to be honest. I know that I was fairly happy before I even did this challenge. However, I’ve focused more on the little things rather than the big. The list of reasons has definitely helped me realize why I’m happy everyday and why I shouldn’t let anything get in the way of being happy. Because, honestly, nothing is worth being miserable over. I’m happy, alive and doing well. What more can I ask for? ;)